Today, on August 16, 2012 at 3:13pm, I received a phone call from a wonderful woman who I would soon know to be my very first official principal. Not only that, but a phone call that would also include a job offer for my very first class. Today I become a first grade teacher at Carmel Del Mar School and I could not be more excited! In 10 days I will be meeting a group of brilliant first graders that are all mine! Mine! I will call them my own, and not only that but I will start and finish the school year with these kiddos... and I literally can't wait!
With that said... let the journey begin!
Jane
Thursday, August 16, 2012
Thursday, June 21, 2012
Square One
And my feelings are somewhat back to square one. I just finished another application, but this time for the district I worked in this last school year... housing the job I really "want"! I feel giddy and butterfly-y... and I don't even know anything yet! But as I filled out the application and detailed my personal mission and my goals in the profession, I could not help but be infused with excitement for this chapter called "A Job" that I know will soon be approaching. It's just that "where" question... that still lingers...
As God grants me peace just as He promises, I woke up today truly possessing the mindset of wanting to choose the path he makes clear to me to be my job next year, despite that it will probably be aligned with all things scary: fear, vulnerability, risk, newness, expectation, etc....
A chapel speaker at Point Loma once said, and I will never forget it (I even remember fbook-statusing-it) that "Love should make us rebels". The transforming Love of God should push us to be rebellious in the way we live our lives. And that makes me uncomfortable because I know that God is going to push me in such a way, and being the cliff jumper girl that I am NOT, that terrifies me... but in a good way. In a good way because in doing so I am trusting God will provide for my utmost needs. Choosing the path God makes clear isn't so bad because of the hope nestled in choosing obedience. In being obedient we are trusting, and in trusting we are surrendering our wants to those of the Lord, and in surrendering we have to believe and know he will take care of us because, oh yes... that's right... He Loves us! How could I forget?
With that said, I am not going to lie! That very reality makes me frustrated and a little bit angry because I like being comfortable!
I picture God laughing at me right now in this moment with a good belly laugh just as I picture Santa Clause to laugh with his tummy shaking like a bowl fully of jelly... humor me in my toddler mind for a minute... and in this moment I want to say to him, "stop! It's not funny!" as I dramatically stomp away, teddy bear dangling in one hand with the butt flap of my red old fashioned onesie pajamas open. Stopping once out of sight I sheepishly look back around the corner at this jolly character. With a slight grin on my face I look at him. He catches me without acknowledgement with the whites of his eyes in that very split second that I cautiously was trying to avoid in keeping my grin 'slight', and I pull back. Now hiding behind the corner in my evident loss I know that he won... just as he always does.
Jane
As God grants me peace just as He promises, I woke up today truly possessing the mindset of wanting to choose the path he makes clear to me to be my job next year, despite that it will probably be aligned with all things scary: fear, vulnerability, risk, newness, expectation, etc....
A chapel speaker at Point Loma once said, and I will never forget it (I even remember fbook-statusing-it) that "Love should make us rebels". The transforming Love of God should push us to be rebellious in the way we live our lives. And that makes me uncomfortable because I know that God is going to push me in such a way, and being the cliff jumper girl that I am NOT, that terrifies me... but in a good way. In a good way because in doing so I am trusting God will provide for my utmost needs. Choosing the path God makes clear isn't so bad because of the hope nestled in choosing obedience. In being obedient we are trusting, and in trusting we are surrendering our wants to those of the Lord, and in surrendering we have to believe and know he will take care of us because, oh yes... that's right... He Loves us! How could I forget?
With that said, I am not going to lie! That very reality makes me frustrated and a little bit angry because I like being comfortable!
I picture God laughing at me right now in this moment with a good belly laugh just as I picture Santa Clause to laugh with his tummy shaking like a bowl fully of jelly... humor me in my toddler mind for a minute... and in this moment I want to say to him, "stop! It's not funny!" as I dramatically stomp away, teddy bear dangling in one hand with the butt flap of my red old fashioned onesie pajamas open. Stopping once out of sight I sheepishly look back around the corner at this jolly character. With a slight grin on my face I look at him. He catches me without acknowledgement with the whites of his eyes in that very split second that I cautiously was trying to avoid in keeping my grin 'slight', and I pull back. Now hiding behind the corner in my evident loss I know that he won... just as he always does.
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
Dear Heavenly Father, God...
It is my utmost desire to follow the path you have for me. Lead me Lord to the teaching job that is best for me. I am open to your call and direction God, knowing that in following you I can never go wrong. Calm my nerves and anxious mind. Today I seek you, trust you, and live obedient to you... open to your will being done in my life. God use me and the passion you have given me to teach to change lives wherever that may be. Don't let fear hold me back. Don't let vulnerability stand in the way. Don't let me forever sit comfortably. Allow for me to experience the joy of this season in being able to take part in so many opportunities, finally walking on the feet of this lifetime dream of becoming a teacher! Thank you God for the hope you have shown me in my future! Now let's figure out where exactly that job is?!
Amen.
Amen.
Saturday, June 9, 2012
Ready. Set. Go!
Find a job!
Train for a half marathon!
I have entered a season in my life where I am so sure of and confident in wanting a full time teaching job. And so needless to say, my hunt has ferociously begun. Over the two months I have applied daily for jobs all throughout San Diego. Up until 2 weeks ago I had not heard a word from anyone. Enter my dear friend Anxiety. I was freaking out (inside) feeling doomed and as if finding a job for next year was mission impossible. But then, low and behold, I received a call. And within 24 hours received another call. Not only did it rain, it poured. Job interview #1 with Horizon Preparatory Academy would be on (this last) Monday and job interview #2 would be with the Solana Beach School District on (this last) Tuesday. Ah!!! Enter nervous stomach and all those friends.
And so I went for it... and let me tell you... I killed em'! I have the confidence (finally) at this point in my passion to say such and to literally feel the drive in wanting to "knock em' dead". I have been wound up like a boxer before a fight, shocking my own very noncompetitive self, and just ready to ever so gracefully, confidently, yet sharply to prove myself best fit as a teacher candidate for this next school year... and praise be to God, now was my chance! Yes, I was nervous. Yes, I was a wreck. But I knew going into both of these interviews what I wanted and that these interviewing moments were my chance to give it all that I've got in proving myself more than qualified for the open teaching positions. I dressed my best, prepped all that I possibly could, talked to myself in my lonesome prior to interviewing more than anyone ever should (my neighbors are ready to institute me, no doubt!), chanted my "I am going to get a job. This is what I was made to do. No one will stand in my way. Today is my turn!", and rocked out and danced out to "Call Me, Maybe" and "What Makes You Beautiful" until all I could do was laugh at my ridiculous self. And then... I composed. I primped. I collected myself. And off I went... with "Call Me, Maybe" forever stuck in my head.
After both interviews I was overwhelmed with a sense of contentment. That in it of itself was a clear sign that I gave it all I had. And low and behold, I have a second interview this next week with Horizon for a 5th grade teaching position, and I made it into the hiring pool and onto the next stage of hiring in the Solana Beach School District. I did it?! I did it. I did it! The feeling of doom has been overcome and hope has ensued. I will find a job! I really will.
On that note... Kate and I also decided that we must get our acts together and what better way to do that than run a half marathon?! August 19th. "America's Finest City Half Marathon". It's happening. And I already sprained my hip.... hahaha. When it rains, it pours!?
Jane
Train for a half marathon!
I have entered a season in my life where I am so sure of and confident in wanting a full time teaching job. And so needless to say, my hunt has ferociously begun. Over the two months I have applied daily for jobs all throughout San Diego. Up until 2 weeks ago I had not heard a word from anyone. Enter my dear friend Anxiety. I was freaking out (inside) feeling doomed and as if finding a job for next year was mission impossible. But then, low and behold, I received a call. And within 24 hours received another call. Not only did it rain, it poured. Job interview #1 with Horizon Preparatory Academy would be on (this last) Monday and job interview #2 would be with the Solana Beach School District on (this last) Tuesday. Ah!!! Enter nervous stomach and all those friends.
And so I went for it... and let me tell you... I killed em'! I have the confidence (finally) at this point in my passion to say such and to literally feel the drive in wanting to "knock em' dead". I have been wound up like a boxer before a fight, shocking my own very noncompetitive self, and just ready to ever so gracefully, confidently, yet sharply to prove myself best fit as a teacher candidate for this next school year... and praise be to God, now was my chance! Yes, I was nervous. Yes, I was a wreck. But I knew going into both of these interviews what I wanted and that these interviewing moments were my chance to give it all that I've got in proving myself more than qualified for the open teaching positions. I dressed my best, prepped all that I possibly could, talked to myself in my lonesome prior to interviewing more than anyone ever should (my neighbors are ready to institute me, no doubt!), chanted my "I am going to get a job. This is what I was made to do. No one will stand in my way. Today is my turn!", and rocked out and danced out to "Call Me, Maybe" and "What Makes You Beautiful" until all I could do was laugh at my ridiculous self. And then... I composed. I primped. I collected myself. And off I went... with "Call Me, Maybe" forever stuck in my head.
After both interviews I was overwhelmed with a sense of contentment. That in it of itself was a clear sign that I gave it all I had. And low and behold, I have a second interview this next week with Horizon for a 5th grade teaching position, and I made it into the hiring pool and onto the next stage of hiring in the Solana Beach School District. I did it?! I did it. I did it! The feeling of doom has been overcome and hope has ensued. I will find a job! I really will.
On that note... Kate and I also decided that we must get our acts together and what better way to do that than run a half marathon?! August 19th. "America's Finest City Half Marathon". It's happening. And I already sprained my hip.... hahaha. When it rains, it pours!?
Jane
Wednesday, June 6, 2012
Welcome back, girl!
Well, no time like the present! This my welcome back post welcoming myself back to my own blog (ha!). In recap of the last several months... here's a photo journey!
September 2011
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| Mom and Dad visit! |
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| New running shoes! |
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| Most unfortunate... |
October 2011
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| Pumpkin Patch |
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| I made my own scarecrow hat... watch out! |
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| Love and support from Melissa and Mark |
November 2011
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| Playing "Royal Wedding"... poor dog! |
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| My love |
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| Elk Grove Turkey Trot... in the rain. |
December 2011
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| A day I remember to be one of the very few days we were all on top of it! :) |
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| Running from the massive cockroach! |
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| "Scottsdale" at Trefethen |
January 2012
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| Oh yeahhh |
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| Surprising Anns for her birthday in little la! |
February 2012
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| The start of my stint in as a K teacher! |
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| Read Across America |
March 2012
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| Their very first Torrey Pines hiking excursion! |
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| Only a kindergartener would find such a thing! :) |
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| The trap my kiddos made to trap the leprechaun! |
April 2012
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| Happy Spring- Lemonade stand! |
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| My chicks hatched! Such a proud mama! |
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| The Coop |
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| My very first Open House! |
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May 2012
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| My new home! |
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| Caf Lane |
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| You can call me Master! |
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| The Whips |
June 2012
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| Our Arizona weekend getaway! |
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| My girl for the weekend! |
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| My little loves |
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| Today!!! The start of half marathon training... Day #1!!! |
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